it's 2:07 am. i spent a good chunk of yesterday just getting everything to work on my 3rd, maybe 4th attempt at using cachyos.
somehow even with all the mild shenanigans i ran into, like having to learn git branch commands on the spot to build a specific version of niri to overwrite its stable binaries with so i can use a feature that only exists on the experimental branch (i still haven't tested it),
or symlinking my hyprland config folder because uninstalling hyde (ugly piece of garbage) meant losing the default hyprland.conf file in the process rendering the whole thing unusable so i had to boot from live usb and reinstall hyprland using arch-chroot, except when i did that hyprland's default config directory somehow ended up at ~/.local/share/hypr instead of ~/.config/hypr so for caelestia dots to actually take effect i had to learn symlinks on the spot too (it wasn't actually that complicated),
or when i had to delete spicetify's binaries at /usr/bin then symlink the updated version so it would stop rolling back to an outdated version every time i ran spicetify backup apply,
i feel like i'm developing a better understanding of how things work.
idk, it's like at least i can take action when something breaks on linux & feel clever when i come up with my own solution or learn something new, and everything works (or breaks) quickly. the frustration of waiting 5 minutes for everything to boot up on windows is perpetual. back when i mained atlasos and knew nothing about the world of linux except for that time i tried out linux mint eons ago i just used the downtime to go do something else.
i still don't understand why spotify (with spicetify configs and all) works perfectly fine on linux but takes 3 minutes to do a single thing on windows. if i'm gonna be honest it's probably because of the giant music collection it's forced to load & reload constantly because i'm still not done downloading it.
yeah i had to reset my progress on the 1.5tb music torrent because i moved some files while it was downloading and when i finally rebooted windows for the first time in like 10 days qbittorrent gave me an error and refused to resume progress. idk how i didn't see that coming honestly.
feels like time flies when i'm just yapping into the void. i haven't even gotten to talk about how i got addicted to balatro years after its relevancy & how it makes me so angry i feel like i could throw up at any moment but then i keep playing because maybe this time the rng will work in my favor.
but hey, at least this is the first time i managed to set everything up without a preset desktop environment. i remember the first time i ever installed cachyos i boldly selected "no desktop" thinking i was smart enough to make things work only to be proven very wrong. wait no, that was nixos. i still haven't gone back since my first 2-3 extremely short-lived attempts. maybe next time it'll be different. next time i might even try out a new window manager.
nah i'll probably stick to my laptop's cachyos install for that
yesterday i went to sleep at 8pm and woke up at 6am. today i went to sleep at 6am and woke up at 7pm. i swear i'm not trying to ruin my sleep schedule on purpose. i want to have a consistent and normal sleep schedule but i also want to squeeze out every minute i spend awake to do everything ever, even if in retrospect i could've just gone to sleep and finish them later.
i know it's a self-destructive way to live but it always feels like i'm making the most out of my time and being smart. i go to sleep in the morning and wake up 12+ hours later feeling like shit because i'm working against my biological clock but then i just keep doing it because what else am i going to do, fix my sleep schedule? i've got work to do, and by "work" i mean watching youtube while waiting for some files to move instead of going to sleep like i planned 4 hours ago.